I spent a delightful time yesterday with Bob Burg, talking about his new book.

It’s Not About You is an inspirational parable, in which Ben, an up and coming young manager, is charged with persuading five hundred employees of a struggling chair manufacturer to agree to a merger as a way out of their financial woes. Facing what seems like an impossible uphill climb, Ben seeks the advice of Claire, an old friend, who introduces him to an eccentric elderly lady known simply as Aunt Elle.

Our complete interview will be posted on Thursday, but in the meantime here is a brief excerpt in which Bob and I talk about one of my favorite lessons from Aunt Elle, in which she teaches Ben the value of tact. She tells Ben that “Tact is the language of strength.” I asked Bob to explain what she meant by this. . .

Click here to listen…

What do YOU believe about the value of tact?

Who knew way back then about the real benefits of Tapping?

I’ve been fooling around with the Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT), or “Tapping” as it is being called by more and more people, for several years. I’ve been able to get myself through some pretty tough times with it, once I got past the “silliness” of tapping various points on my head and body while I said some statements out loud. But I never did it on a regular basis, and I didn’t experiment with listening to different experts take me through their particular tapping routines. I guess you could say I was a tapping dilettante.  I believed in it, I did it when I was in trouble, but I didn’t talk much about it to people who might look askance at me when I tried to explain it.

Pieces of Fluff

All this changed when I decided to make the commitment to fully participate in the 2011 Worldwide Online Tapping Summit in February. I tapped faithfully every day with the two daily experts, and a funny thing happened. As I experienced each person’s approach to tapping, I began to learn what worked best for me. And as I tapped along with them, little pieces of fluff that had been stuck in my subconscious, waiting for just the right moment to spring out and attack me — well, they just seemed to disappear.

Mind Blowing

And then there were two truly mind blowing experiences — one after a tapping session about half-way through the Summit and one during a tapping session near the end of the Summit. I suddenly “got” on a very deep level that I had a choice about all this, pardon me, crap I was letting abide in my subconscious. I have spent many years and many dollars dealing with all this crap – too many modalities to list here. And progress has certainly been made. But down deep, I was still longing for some miracle that would allow me to release this deeply buried belief that I was, after all, damaged goods, and nothing I could do would ever change that.

Well, guess what — I was wrong.  I experienced something that is a bit difficult to describe, but since I’m a writer I’ll give it a try. What happened was that a thought that was so strong it pushed everything else aside said to me very clearly, “This stuff about being damaged goods is just crap. You can choose to let it go.”

Becoming Truly Free

The first time this happened was after a tapping session. I was sitting on my comfy blue couch in my office, looking out the windows at the beautiful landscape of the valley below us. That thought came to me, and then suddenly the light in the room turned very bright. I felt the immense power of my thought all over my body in a tingling fashion, not unlike some experiences I have had in deep meditation. And I had a Knowing that this was true and that this would change my life in the way that I had been seeking for so many years.

The second experience occurred during a tapping session with Nick Ortner a few days later.  There was something about the way he approached it — or maybe it was just that I had picked up so many pieces from all the other experts and it all came together right then.  Instead of just standing there looking out my window, tapping along with him, I suddenly had that deep Knowing once again. The light in my office became very bright again. And I heard my thought clearly say — “This crap is over. You are free.”

Tapping, Then and Now

So, it is now two days later as I write this post, including a picture of myself as a little girl dressed for my tap recital, a picture I always hated because I was too skinny, I wasn’t as good at tapping as the other girls, I wasn’t pretty enough compared to my friends — all that stuff that has been so deeply embedded in me since I was a very young girl and my father filled my head with all this propaganda. I’ve always envied other women who could put up pictures of themselves as little girls, while my shame at not being good enough or pretty enough kept me locked in a prison of my own making.

As I said earlier, I have worked on this and many other issues for decades. It is only because of all this work that I am still here on the planet. But, doggone it, I was really getting tired of working so hard and still dragging this crap around with me — and I felt like I was running out of time. Maybe this is why I decided to really commit to the tapping this time.

Now, I understand that I will still need to continue to tap — there are all sorts of things still lying around to be dealt with, not just by me but by any regular human being who is not damaged goods.  But now I know I can tap on anything that comes up with the confidence that I can find it, tap it, and watch it dissolve like a sugar cube in water.

Out of the Closet

So – I am finally coming out of the Tapping closet, like so many other people are doing now – because I finally know what they know – this tapping stuff works, big time.

The Summit has ended, but you can still get some free audio bonuses from the event:

You can get free audios from the Tapping Summit Packages by clicking here.

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Dramatic events have compelled me to write once again about the powerful impact on our bodies and minds of drinking enough water.

I researched the issue of proper hydration in 2009 when I was writing my ebook about insomnia.  What I learned compelled me to write a post about it, and to finally figure out how to guarantee that I consumed at least 64 oz of water every day.

The solution was brilliantly simple – every day I would write the numbers 1 2 3 in the bottom corner of my daily planner. I kept a beautiful blue water bottle on my desk, and each time I filled and drank the contents I circled one of those numbers. And voila, I became a regular water drinker!

Fast forward to a month ago. It was time to get a new daily planner, and the store no longer had my favorite notebook. I kept thinking I would find it somewhere else, so I just started making my daily list on random pieces of paper until I found my special notebook. After a few weeks I finally gave up and bought a different notebook, and went back to my old system.

With one important difference. I had lost the water habit somewhere in this transition, and forgot to begin again with entering the 1 2 3 on the lower corner of my notebook.

I was busy. A lot was going on in our lives. So my trusty blue water bottle sat quietly on my desk, waiting for me to rediscover it.

Then last week I really took a dive emotionally. I felt fatigued, depressed, unable to concentrate, and had trouble remembering things. I would look at some notes I’d made a day or two before and could not figure out what I was talking about.

Oh my God, I thought, this is it, this is the beginning of Alzheimers. My mother, grandmother and aunt had it, and now here it is. I was petrified – how could it be happening this early? I started talking to friends about how scared I was, how I would have to cut back on what I was doing, how my mental capacity was slipping away each day.

And then, a few days later, as I was sitting at my desk, resigned to a life of small projects and simple thoughts, I noticed my blue water bottle on my desk. Wait a minute, when did I stop drinking water? I remembered how the effects of being dehydrated had been so powerfully imprinted in me when I collapsed some years ago during the Avon Breast Cancer Walk in 100 degree heat. Granted, that was an extreme event, but – could some of what I was feeling be because I had stopped my water habit?

I grabbed the blue bottle and ran downstairs to fill it up. I came back upstairs, filled my glass, and drank it down as though I had been walking in the desert for days. Then I wrote 1 2 3 in the corner of my planner, and poured another glass.

That day I drank my three bottles of water. And the next day I did the same. And — this is so remarkable I understand that you may have trouble believing it – the next day my mind cleared! The fog rolled out, energy poured back into my body, the depression lifted. I felt like one of those people you see in the movies who drops to their knees and yells out to the world that they’ve have been cured.

So guess what, no onset of Alzheimers. My brain cells were just crying out for water and were trying to get my attention. No chronic fatigue, just my body’s cells begging for water. No depression, just my entire being trying valiantly to remind me how good it was to be given the water it needs to perform its excellent work every day.

I understand that this little story may seem simplistic. And I know that there are many other causes for many of the ailments and diseases we struggle with. But from my research, and from this dramatic incident in my own life, I say with all my heart – please do yourself a favor and figure out how to drink enough pure water every day. Guideline is 64 oz a day just to replace what we lose. If you drink a lot of coffee or exercise heavily, drink more than that.

And now, I need to call some people to let them know I am still able to discuss complex issues. . .

When I was growing up, oh so many years ago, I was told that good little girls are seen and not heard — but somewhere along the line I decided I really didn’t want to be a good little girl, and I’ve been pretty loud ever since.

However, this imprinting still holds me back when it comes to asking for help in getting my message out there.  Somewhere in the dark recesses of my mind is that idea that I should not be pushy, that people will not like me, that they will think I am a brazen hussy.

This old brainwashing has me on the horns of a dilemma with regard to getting my book, Choosing to Be, out to the world in a big way. I know from all the feedback that the book makes a difference in people’s lives. Everyone who reads it loves it, the reviews on Amazon are amazing, and Findhorn Press is behind me one hundred percent. And — we are making progress.

But when I see something like this latest review of Choosing to Be, I get that fire in my belly again, that Don Quixote spirit to once more get out there and tilt at those windmills.

These are the kind of messages I receive about what this little book means to people who are struggling just like I was.  I know that over $40 BILLION DOLLARS  is being spent on antidepressants. I see the ads on TV telling people to just take this little pill and they will be all better. (Yes, sometimes medication is needed, but  it is not the only solution.) I see too clearly and painfully that we have lost our collective minds to have allowed big pharma to brainwash us on a daily basis — without so much as a whimper. (TS Eliot had this one right…)

Before I saw this Amazon review on Sunday, I was feeling a little discouraged. I started writing Choosing to Be about my journey out of depression over 17 years ago. I finally finished it and self published it in 2007, slugging it out on my own to get reviews and media mentions for 2 years. And then Findhorn Press decided to pick it up and put out a beautiful new edition. It is wonderful that now I am not alone on the plains like Don Quixote — but this still isn’t enough. We are not reaching nearly enough people to turn the tide.

Shortly after reading this review, I got an email from book marketing expert Steve Harrison about making a Quantum Leap to really get your book out there. He said we need 3 things:  1. Burning desire, 2. Resources, and 3. Willingness to Change.

I’ve got the Burning Desire. I have some of the Resources and can probably get more if I ask for them. Ah — the Willingness to Change, there’s the rub.

What is holding me back? Right, that old childhood fear of being a brazen hussy.

And then I finally got it. (Thanks, Steve) Most, if not all, of the women I really admire have probably been called brazen hussies, and much worse, in their time. What am I so afraid of?  Who the heck cares?

So — I took this Amazon review that once again lit that fire in my belly, and sent it to my friends and the people I have helped get their message out — and I asked them to help me get my message out.

And you know what, not one of them called me a brazen hussy. They just supported me like I was a good little girl . . .

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See more reviews for Choosing to Be on Amazon

Today I have the great pleasure of being the host on Day 7 of the Virtual Blog Tour for A New Dawn Awaits by author E.Dee Conrad.

A New Dawn Awaits is a compassionate and inspiring channelled collection of short inspirational reflections, bringing together wisdom of the ages, showing us how to access knowledge that has been part of our consciousness, but has been dormant, for eons. E.Dee’s intention in writing this book is to help readers reach inwards into their divine essence and outwards to the energy that connects us as one humanity.

Yesterday, E.Dee visited Tomar Levine’s blog http://www.yourtimetobloom.com/blog/

For today’s stop on the tour, I thought it would be interesting to interview E.Dee on the topic of what we can do to raise our consciousness and the role our thoughts and emotions play in shaping our destiny.

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Kat:    Why is raising human consciousness so important at this time?

E.Dee: We are at the end of a cycle of existence. Humanity flows through stages, which are part of a larger cycle of life and death. We are standing on the doorstep of full understanding of the universe, the power of Universal Consciousness and spiritual enlightenment. Actively working to raise consciousness at this point will help ensure we cross over as a group into a new reality and form of existence that is based on love, compassion and kindness.

Kat:  What are some ways one can do this?

E.Dee: There are many ways to develop spiritually and raise consciousness. One of the ways is to meditate regularly (10 minutes is enough) and become aware of your thoughts. Meditation nourishes your soul and helps you connect with your higher self and the Universal Consciousness.

Kat:  How do we shape our reality with our thoughts? How can we change what we think?

E.Dee: Our existence is based on thoughts. They emit energy and it is this energy that creates and sustains the universe. Our thoughts are the building blocks of the universe – a type of procreation. Everything looks as it does because of the thoughts that have accumulated over the ages. Change a thought and you will change the universe.

We just have to be more aware of what we think, because all thoughts have power – there are no meaningless or random thoughts. Awareness, in and of itself, will bring about a change in your thoughts and actions. If you are aware that a negative thought has negative consequences, you will automatically begin to “correct” these thoughts. Soon, the majority of your thoughts will become positive and help advance humanity’s consciousness instead of impeding or slowing it down.

Kat:  What about emotions? What role do they play in shaping our world?

E.Dee: Emotions are the cornerstone upon which all thoughts and actions are based. Without emotions, there would be no you. Emotions create and color your thoughts. These thoughts then bring about a manifested reality, a tangible world full of experiences and events.

Kat:  How can one person contribute to humanity’s destiny?

E.Dee: Do a few meditations and then remain aware of your thoughts and actions, and you will be able to transform not only yourself, but humanity! Every journey begins with a single step. Each transformation of consciousness begins with a single individual. All you have to do is be aware of your thoughts.

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I hope you enjoyed this interview with E.Dee Conrad and that you’ll check out her book A New Dawn Awaits, which is coming to Amazon on Tuesday September 21, 2010. You can receive a collection of over 30 beautiful personal development gifts when you buy her book on the day of her launch.

In addition, E.Dee is hosting a very special FREE telesummit entitled “The Shift. The Message. The Transformation” on September 14th, 15th and 16th with nine of today’s most vibrant authors and speakers on the topic of the consciousness, transformation and the global “shift” occurring on our planet today. If you’d like to attend, all you have to do is request a “launch reminder” about the book, and you’ll receive all the information to attend. If you cannot make the live event, you can download the audio at your convenience.

To find out how to buy E.Dee’s book and receive these gifts, including the FREE pass to the 3-day online telesummit, go to http://ht.ly/2uA7a

AND you can read all about the telesummit and the guests on the 3 days at http://virtualspiritualevents.com

Be sure to follow E.Dee tomorrow when the next stop on her Virtual Blog Tour is Geoff Laughton’s blog at http://geofflaughton.com/gltc/blog/.

Forty years ago, Buzz Aldrin danced on the moon.  He did a little kangaroo hop that was watched by 600 million viewers. I was one of them.

Now this 80 year old American icon is dancing again, this time on Dancing with the Stars. 40 million viewers watched. And again, I was one of them.

It’s staggering to consider about how much has changed since Buzz Aldrin’s first dance on the moon. In fact, thinking about this motivated me to create a quick timeline of those 40 years, just to get a sense of the changes I had personally experienced during that span.

I was fortunate that my work during the first twenty years of that period was as a change agent, someone who helped organizations and individuals go through what were often dramatic and fear inducing changes. I even wrote a book about change, creating a model I still use to this day.

And then I went through my own personal dramatic change when I had to give up my consulting practice, benched as I was by what no one knew about in the early nineties, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I wrote a book about that too.

So I am no stranger to change. In fact, I consider myself a Practitioner of it, one who aspires to Mastery, a la George Leonard’s great book of the same name.

But I must confess, sometimes I feel a bit overwhelmed by the changes my partner Greg and I have been faced with in the past two years, and I am sometimes a bit daunted by more changes we see ahead. When this overwhelm creeps in, I find it difficult to be creative, to think clearly, to enjoy the beautiful present moment that is always mine.

What I need at these moments varies. A walk in the woods, time spent in meditation, getting on my knees to express gratitude for my life, just as it is. Sometimes an inspiring book, like Wayne Dyer’s There is a Spiritual Solution for Every Problem.

Now I have another source of inspiration — watching Buzz Aldrin on Dancing with Stars. Okay, so he can’t dance worth a darn, but that’s not why he is doing it. He is doing it to show us that we can still dance. Forty years ago we were young, we were powerful, we were full of ourselves and we thought we could do anything. Now we have had the proverbial rug pulled out from under us, and we may be floundering a bit.

So Buzz is dancing again, and I am filled with gratitude that I am here, at this moment, to watch him do it, again.

Let’s pretend the Still Point is a place, a dot on the map of your consciousness. Do you know where it is? Do you have any roads leading to it? Or is it a tiny pinprick, lost in a sea of busyness, drifting about with no anchor, far from shore?

In today’s busy world, it’s easy to lose our connection to the Still Point, and the further we get from it, the less it even occurs to us that we might need to visit it – because, after all, we have THINGS TO THINK ABOUT! THINGS TO DO!

When I hear people say they have tried to meditate, but it is just too hard, I know they have forgotten about (or maybe never knew) the inestimable and necessary beauty of the Still Point.

What is the Still Point?

Each of us will describe it differently, but here is what it is for me –

It is moment in time when I let go of my need to be absorbed in my thoughts, when I step back and simply observe them floating by like ripples in a stream.

I feel my body sink into the chair, my spine relax, the heaviness of my hands on my lap.

My breathing becomes deeper and smoother, and I am aware of the sound of my breathing in and breathing out.

Gradually (and the amount of time this takes can vary from a few minutes to half an hour), I am able to let go of my stream of thoughts. I become aware of the sounds in the room, of my body in the chair, of the PRESENT MOMENT.

I may see some colors or lights or other visual effects. This does not always happen but when it does I welcome it. I may also feel a warm tingling all over my body.

Sensations come and go. Thoughts come and go. Moments of complete peace come and go. Moments of ecstasy come and go. Nothing lasts. Nothing needs to last. I am part of the larger stream, letting it carry me and remind me that I am always part of it.

Eventually I return from the Still Point.

I drink a big glass of water and make a few notes about my visit. When I am finished, I leave my journal on the small round glass table next to my large overstuffed deep red chair. I fold my tattered and much beloved brown shawl and place it over the arm of the chair, put my shoes on, and walk back into my busy life, with the memory of where I have been to enrich and sustain my everyday world.

Postscript:  A Metaphor about the Still Point from Inside Our Magnificent Bodies

I am reminded of the conversation I had on Finding Magic in Midlife with Dr. Joan King, a former neuroscience professor and author of The Code of Authentic Living: Cellular Wisdom. She coaches people in how to be guided from deep inside, from our own cellular wisdom. As we were talking about the fast pace of our world today and the excitement of being able to have access to so many people through social media like Twitter, I made the comment that this constant stream of input made me feel overwhelmed at times.

Joan and I discussed her chapter called Turning On and Turning Off in which she addresses this very issue. Here is the wisdom from our cells:  After the neurons are stimulated and release their transmitters they go into a quiet phase that is 3-4 times as long as when they were active. You see, when they are active lots of charged molecules are moving out and charged particles are moving in.  The cells have to re-equilibrate and move things back into place (sort of like catching up with your filing). During this time, the neuron is completely still.  If you force the neuron to fire during this restorative still time, it dies.

This is a perfect metaphor for our external lives. If we are constantly busy, if we don’t take time for silence and regain our equilibrium, nothing will be integrated and we will burn out. We will lose our connection to the larger source, our creative ability, our sense of peace and well being – our restorative connection to the Still Point.

Footnote: The Still Point in a Turning World is a line from T. S. Eliot

Before I begin, I want you to know that I am not whining – I’m scientifically observing my own resistance to change.

I recently committed to writing something every day – a blog post, a newsletter piece, or an article. This is in addition to beginning the writing of my new book, the sequel to Choosing to Be. Naturally I find myself getting distracted by the many other things that need doing, and often the day slips by with nary a word on paper or screen.

As I explore my lack of results I realize that I am still pushing myself to do this – there is no pull, no vision of who I will be, how I will feel, when I actually am able to write on a daily basis.

I haven’t figured out how to change the way I think about this and set myself up for success. I don’t carry around a little notebook to jot down ideas as they come to me. I don’t set aside a time each day to do my daily posting to one of my blogs. And now that I know I can postdate a post, I’ve found a loophole – and I have enlarged that loophole from two days without posting to three days, then backdating the posts.

It’s amusing that I’m struggling so with this change to become a daily blogger. After all, I wrote a book on change in the early 90’s, and developed a change model that still holds true today. My model was based on work by Roger Gould, who wrote Transformations, and William Bridges, author of Transitions, on how to succeed at making changes in your life.

At the time I was consulting with companies on how to implement widespread structural changes or new corporate-wide systems. What I learned about change was that no matter how many people were impacted by corporate change, it was for each of them a quite personal matter. The problem, and the reason for the failure of many costly change implementations, was that often the people trying to implement the change didn’t think much about the people involved.

I smiled as I wrote that last sentence, because I suddenly had this image of me as a giant corporation deciding that I should become a daily blogger, without considering the personal implications for me, the person who has to make the change. Perhaps my corporate mind should spend a little time exploring the implications for the little person who has to actually do the work.

Hmmm, I’m beginning to see why this becoming a daily blogger is so difficult. My big corporate self is telling my little writer self to “get with the program” – after all, my corporate self has goals, big ideas, worlds to conquer. Meanwhile my little writer self, who has always had to take a back seat to my corporate self, is really pissed off. Once again, my creative abilities are not being respected. Feels just like all those years I had to spend writing corporate stuff instead of poetry or books about talking cats.

I am trying to find interesting things to write about, views with a twist, imaginative observations. But I’m not used to doing this on a daily basis, not used to keeping track of all my ideas, and then when it is time to write, sometimes my mind looks like a big stretch of Antarctica, completely white and devoid of any living forms.

So like all the “little people,” I’m pushing back at the big corporate mind dictating this change, finding reasons not to do it, problems that get in the way, subtle passive resistance that makes the big corporate mind pull her hair out. “Who cares,” I pout, crossing my arms and stamping my foot. “After all, what has she ever done for me?”

“Well,” my corporate mind replies, “I did give you this idea about exploring your resistance to change, didn’t I? And, I’m showing you right here that you can do one of your favorite things — you can write dialogue even in a blog. So why not open up that creative mind of yours and have some fun?”

I suspect a trick, but I do have to admit that her idea of digging deeper into my resistance as an actual blog post was pretty cool. And I do love writing dialogue.

“Okay,” I reply grudgingly, “I admit I’ve been dragging my feet. Maybe you’re on to something. As long as you promise that I can exercise my creative freedom however I see fit, I’ll do it.”

“That’s lovely. I just know you are going to like what comes of this. Trust me, I know what’s best for you,” she says with that knowing smile I’ve learned to hate.

But, what the heck, I know how to postdate my blog posts, so I can still play her game in my own devious little way — just like all the little people have been doing for centuries.

Have you ever bought a present for someone that you just couldn’t stop playing with? That’s what happened to me when I bought the Mirage, an instant 3-D hologram maker. You put this little plastic pig in the bowl, put the top on, and the pig appears to be sitting on the top of the bowl — but it’s not, it is only a hologram.

I now have this Mirage maker sitting on my desk, and every so often I reach over and try to pick up the pig, and every time I am re-astonished at how real the pig seems until I touch it.

The same thing is true of our “stories” isn’t it? They seem so real, we just know they are real, this is what really happened to me, we scream silently. But if we tell our story, or better yet, write our story, and ask someone who is not involved to listen to it or read it, and ask them to give us their view of it, or ask us questions about it, what do we find? It is just a story. We have personally arranged all the mirrors, just like this they did with the Mirage maker.

This is how the Mirage makes the pig appear real. The mirrors have to be arranged just a certain way, and they have to be polished for it to work. Hmmm, sound familiar? We have been arranging and polishing those mirrors for years. And then, if we are very lucky, someone moves one of the mirrors just a bit, and the pig disappears. Wow! Been carrying that pig around all my life, and now it’s just gone. What a miracle!

I actually arrived at this idea about the mirrors before the Mirage came into my life, when I was writing the chapter on Anger in Choosing to Be. I was having trouble explaining how meditation eventually helps us get out of our Ordinary Mind (the Mirage) and into Buddha Mind.

I was writing the dialogue between me and Poohbear Degoonacoon, the Feline Zen Master, in which he was trying to help me break free of my story, the one that was coming up repeatedly like a bad movie in my meditation. Pooh said that I was caught in the Wheel of Samsara (suffering), reliving the same events over and over again. He told me that the way to get of the wheel was to “become curious about this anger and this hurt and this humiliation. Do not participate in the scene. These feelings you are having are not you. Do not be overcome by what is happening in it. Step back and look at it from a distance.”

Several days later, the same scene came up again in my meditation. This time I did what Pooh suggested. I became curious, asking myself about the texture and tone of the feelings, and how my body was responding to them. I saw that my stomach would tighten, and I wasn’t breathing. I took a deep breath, and then another.

The story was still present, but the scene had shifted, as though I was looking at it from another angle. It was just a story about a woman who as a young girl made a decision that it was not acceptable to speak her truth. I saw how my story could morph and change in an instant, as if I was in a hall of mirrors and I just moved a few inches to the right — and got a completely different picture.

Of course, there are lots of books and techniques we can use to help us get out of our stories, but I find myself getting pretty attached to the pink pig that is not sitting on top of the bowl on my desk. Guess I’ll have to go back to the store to get another Mirage for that present I still owe my friend.